A lot can happen in a year

New year and new me, yes that cliché words always surrounding yourself at the new year. You said you will eat healthy food and live a green-organic-gluten free lifestyle and only last for a couple of months or even just couple of weeks. You got distracted by a guy who couple of weeks lately sends a flirty text or career opportunity at the office. You think your life is back on track and on fire, and then life happens. Life slams right in the face, leave an ugly mark on the one of your eyes to cheek. Life throws a punch in the air, and kick ass your dream and hope. You feel lucky just to survive in this year. Yup, those pretty much my kaleidoscope in last year.

And this year, to save me from tears, i will give no fucking care about everything (LMAO, I’m sorry George Michael, rest in peace). Someone said that last year could reflect what you would be in the next year. Last year is pretty shitty, for most of us. We got Trump as President elected, iconic celebrity and people influencer died, my life, what else? I had the lowest point of my life (so far) in this year. And one thing for sure, i will not go back to that point again in my entire life, no more. I literally feel grateful just survive through last year. I’ve learned my lesson.

taken from my instagram @ejhgrph

But not all the bad things happen to me, umm yeah well actually a lot of bad things happen in my life (who am i kidding), but if you can see the big picture and from another angle there’s something good. There’s always a silver lining in every problem and drama that I’ve been through last year. It helps me to become more ‘mature’ to solve problem. I guess last year kinda change of who i am for this year.

Someone just told me that i am a really nice person, thoughtful and tolerate others. Well, this year i will not be that nice, no more. This year, I will focus on myself, my dream, my career, my body, my outfit, my savings, and me me me. I’m not being selfish but just a man who knows what i want, what i need, and what to do to get it. Is it wrong? Well not entirely, depends on how you play it. I will not stop being nice and kind to the other, but thoughtful and caring, you have to earn it.

If someday love hit me right in the feels, well i will put aside my feelings. The first and ultimate lesson from last year is, “I’M NOT GOOD HANDLE FEELINGS”. So put aside all the feelings and relationship stuff, if it happen to, i will try my best to hold it (or maybe fake it). I will not let anyone break down my wall again. And I’m ready to embrace my new me. This year is a whole new me.

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